That just happened
by Alanda Kariza
We grew up. Yes, that just happened.
Every single thing in life that happens so slowly, yet so constantly, never fail to brag to us on how we would never, ever notice that it had happened. Growing up. Finishing school. Falling in love. Losing a friend. Learning how to drive. Writing papers. Obtaining lessons from life. Then, we might go: what the hell? I’ve finished school already?
Sometimes, we might want to ask why, why did time betray us? But then, where have we been all this time – when life was happening in our life? Yet, we will try to go back to words, pictures, conversations, memories… to relive what happened, to relive what we thought we have never experienced. But we have. Though we might forget to realise it.
You know what comes up next? The thought of realising that sometimes, words delude us. Nah, often times than not, they do. So do pictures. Memories. Conversations. Trying to encourage us to live in the past. To go back to school again, learn to drive again. To grow up once again.
Better yet. Most of us want to fall for its beauty. We want – in fact, we yearn to be deluded. But, would you? Would you sacrifice your real present to be deluded with what you thought was so good you would never ever experience again?
I probably wouldn’t.
I wouldn't, either.
But let me add a few thoughts of mine. I agree that sometimes, we want to delude ourselves because our real present is not as good as we expect. My thought is that it is not good to drown in that delusion of our past. But please, do remember also that past, in pictures, memories, or conversations, actually was not meant to delude, but to heal. Its beauty in memories, with every detail just like the smell, the feel, the people around, the conversation or the interaction with them, is so powerful that it can really heal, in the present. So, just the same as every other thing in life, our past will be good if it used in the right way. Leave the delusion part, and just fall for its beauty.
So yes indeed, I really want to fall for its beauty, that is so beautiful it makes you want to cry. I want and, in fact, i yearn to be healed.
So yes indeed, I really want to fall for its beauty, that is so beautiful it makes you want to cry. I want and, in fact, i yearn to be healed.